typical emotions
It hurts that he doesn’t notice me. I try so hard. And the sad part is…is that he won’t notice. He won’t notice that I make sure I’m the last person in class so he looks at me when I walk past his desk. He won’t notice that I wear my cutest clothes to impress him. He won’t notice that every time he looks at me my heart starts racing and sometimes its hard to breath. He won’t notice that I ask him what the homework is about once a week, even though I know exactly what it is; I just want to hear his voice and have the satisfaction of knowing that he actually picked up his phone when he saw my name flash up. I try to tell myself that it’s just not meant to be and that there’s a reason for everything. It’s just difficult to get over that. I almost don’t want to stop trying to impress him, because deep down I know he likes me. Deep deep down he feels how I feel, but he’s really good at covering up his feelings. I tell myself this because it helps me cope, cope with the fact that he really doesn’t care about me. Because if he did he would be bending over backwards to please me. But this is just a silly high school crush, I’ll move on with my life without him. I don’t need him. I just want him.
